I refused an offer rencently because it took me a long time(nearly 2 hours) to office. I tried many ways to solve this problem. First, I took a week to rented a house near the office, unfortunately it was too noisy to live, and the black agent also cheated my money of deposit. Second, I also tried to ride the electric bycicle, it not only very dangerous in the busy traffic, but also a long time, espically harder to in a rainy day. Due to the conoravirus, it is also very dangerous to take the public transport, I need to change subway for four times then take 15 minutes walk to the office. So I will waste almost four hours per day. I can't accept this!
Finnally, I told the HR I gived up this offer. I regret my choice but I have no chance now. It's hard to live in Shanghai even I am a front-end developer, I don't like this city, but I have no choice because I can't find a job in my hometown. I prepared for the interview for a long time. I try a lot of oppotunities but I only got this only one offer. Now I need to restart and return the life of finding a job. I also need to recover the interview status because I don't write code for a long time during the Spring Festival. At least I write a lot of summary for the interview, it can help me recover the memory quickly.
I told my teacher I feel very anxiety because I need to find a new job again. He told me this is the life, he has some samiliar time in his life, it's a hard time that like climbing a step, you climp up one step, but sometime you go back two steps, do it again and again, you need to persevere and you'll succeed.
He also told me I need have a rest in the weekend, you need sometime to relax and enjoy your own time. Otherwise you'll be crazy.
I just want to find a job what I can work for a long time in an international company. I don't want a work with the 996 work system in a Chinese company. I need the work-life balance, it is impossiable in China.
I will always remember this period. I don't know why everything is going wrong, when I am trying hard to change it, the result became worse and worse. I need to waste my time to solve one trouble after another. I feel very tired. Even I want to give up and go back to my hometown.
My experice tell me I need to be brave and insist, if you avoid diffculties, there will be more diffculties. I also need to open my mind and face to the reality. Leaving the comfort zone and changing myself, studying hard and preparing for the opportunity in this darkest time, I think I will be there someday.
